I discover a truth- a-minute it seems. Ironic considering I have known few that believe in truths of any variety. Some elusive idea every moment, that is designed to shake me to my core if I let it and it appears that I do.
Of late it is the fact that I truly envy people their convictions. Their inherent faith and trust in the Almighty and the Powers that BE. Perhaps it is because my relationship with the said powers is proverbially 'on the rocks'? Is that why I am inanely resentful or regressively pretentious regarding those who find their paths in right, ritual and routine.
I believe... truly, completely and unquenchingly in His/Her existence, however, I simply cannot bring myself to believe in the 'systems' designed to bring us both closer.What is worse is the fact that I now, feel I often rub people off the wrong way when it comes to faith, perhaps I am merely defensive or is that I 'really' am judgmental?
Because the latter would contradict all I hope I could ever stand for.