Adeste Fideles

Come All Ye Faithful

“I just can’t decide if I believe there is something bigger out there, I want to but that only negates it more”

Well I’m, not really sure about bigger but ‘omnipotence’ – I like to think- is infinite, all-encompassing even…

“Even so, I re-invent you on a daily basis: one day you are dogmatic and trite; the next deep and metaphorical; some days mighty and marvellous; others petulant and childish… ‘You’ dear Deity, don’t really exist as an independent entity, save of my need for you to exist.”

What makes that any less important?

“It makes it less logical, less legitimate. Mere need and pathetic dependence on a false ideal. Where is the merit in that passing off as faith?! It isn’t noble, its cowardice.”

So? When did ‘proof’ become so bloody important all of a sudden? Why let details deprive you of the comfort that belief can bring?

“You mean, why let the illusion shatter?”

Illusions can help, heal even.

“Then why give me a brain if you never wanted me to use it…”

Aha! So you do still acknowledge ‘my giving’ of it. That means you still acknowledge Me.

“Not really, this conversation is subliminally manufactured at both ends. If I can speak for you, that just means that all your ‘tapped favourites’ did the same. What then, makes my semblance of reality any less bloody prophetic than Mohammad’s or Abraham?”

Dogma isn’t necessarily a dead end, you know…

“Oh it most certainly is, and frankly you are much easier to take without it, besides I could just as easily ascertain that my ‘brain’ evolved over eons of time, terming that process as ‘you’.”

But…

“Sounds less glamorous than ‘Almighty’ don’t it?”

Sigh!

“If I have a brain, and I have the audacity to presume I am meant to use it, then that means you probably already saw this coming, in fact I’m willing to bet you wanted it.”

Wanted what?

“You wanted me to question the logic behind your notion of existence, for me and you. You know what I think, I think you got bored with all the bowing and scraping (presuming you exist and are still into that sort of thing) and you chose to create an entity that could reject you. Maybe you just needed to know what rejection felt like…”

I’m not that damn passive-aggressive!

HAH!

I KNOW rejection, I invented it. I even…

“Yes, you know it but you’ve never experienced it. So now what, you’ll damn me for questioning the premise you yourself allowed me to question by invoking faculties you yourself gave me to do just that with?”

There are limits…

“No actually there aren’t, actually- You are the limit, and you by your own admission have none”

That is positively ridiculous!

“Why? Because you don’t come out a winner in the end?”

No, Its just…

“And why do you always need to win in the end, at least with me, if you ARE omnipotent, it shouldn’t really matter what I say or think. Why the perpetual tendency to have everyone back you up, you can’t seriously be THAT insecure?”

So your willing to settle for just a lukewarm affirmation for life?! “Something bigger than me” will be enough for you? I don’t think so, I know you, you’ll keep looking.

“Of course I’ll keep looking, but what makes you assume it will be for you, I’ll be looking for ‘truth’ beyond-behind-beneath-besides and, to cover all bases, even 'in' you.”

There are many things ‘bigger than you’ Sweetheart; why not inaugurate a cult to the worship of Aquatic mammals next?

“Actually, there aren’t. If I am the sum of my mind and soul then the only thing ‘bigger’ is the unknown. The ‘unknown’ is much easier to digest – pardon the cliché’ – than a Daddy-Don’t-Do-It-Deity with flaming chariots and Tartarus Pits.”

So I’m just something ‘bigger'?


“Feels small doesn’t it?”

Yeah.